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NOVEMBER RETROSPEC POST

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Eleanor

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[from here]

You are certainly going out of your way for me, and I appreciate it, although I hope I never have to come to the point in which these are essential.

It is nice to meet you, Eleanor! My name is Angela.

[notyourutopian]

...I guess that was a lot wasn't it.
I just wouldn't want to be stuck on the street, I've met some people that have it.

Well.

It's nice to meet you, too, Angela.
Have you found somewhere to stay?

[androidheart]

For the time being, yes!

I am still working out a long-term plan, but I should be okay for the next few days at least.

[notyourutopian]

Good. Okay.

So what do you want to do? Once you get your feet on the ground.

Minato

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[from here]

That is quite a while! Long enough to accompany a few of my songs, that's for sure.

[Beams as she leans in closer to him for no reason but to express her pleasure at his health.]

Your commitment to it despite your less than willing lungs is an inspiration, did you know that? [Waggles her calloused fingers in front of him.]

I believe that some of the most beautiful music results from pushing one's body to the limits.

[compendiem]

[ Minato can't decide whether to smile at her smile or lean away as she leans in, so he compromises by doing neither of those, folding his arms so he can slump over and rest his chin on his arms, staring at the coffee that is now eye level instead of Angela. ]

That music is called screaming and crying... [ Dying sounds, Angela... ] My lungs aren't ever going to return to perfect health, but at least I can slow its decline. I like breathing. That's all the reason is.

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I think...[She circles her fingers around her coffee cup.]

That's even more beautiful, in a sense.

[Her smile will turn sheepish, however.]

We don't need to keep discussing your health, though.

I was offered a job that would provide me housing in exchange for some daily work...However, I'm not sure that I'm cut out for that. The pressure of being so indebted to my employer sounds...stressful, don't you think?

[compendiem]

[ He tries to shrug, but it's hard when he's pinning his own arms down. Only a handful of hours out of the house, and she's already got a job and housing lined up for her. That's honestly remarkable. ]

I work two jobs. The money I make keeps me alive too. But instead of feeling indebted... I think of it as helping each other out? People don't get hired out of pity. They get hired because they're the best choice the employer has for the work.

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[She fights the urge to hug him because honestly Minato you just have it So Hard and it tugs on her heart.]

That's a good perspective to have, Minato.

I'm not sure this is one of those cases, though. I'm only being offered the position because of my situation. It's the same reason that so many have offered their money or their couch. Everyone is going on of their way to help me.

It swells my heart, and yet...I still feel unsure of what I should actually do. I suppose my life is having change forced upon it faster than I might have hoped. [Angela makes sure not to press too much distraughtness into her words, being mindful of who exactly she's telling this to.]

Eikichi 3/1

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[continued from~]

You remind me a little of someone. Or rather, the inverse of someone.

I am no longer going to be human, shortly. It is a difficult process.

You're very kind.

I wish I had met you at another time in my life where I could be more receptive to your kindness.

[deathboss]

The inverse of someone?

Aww geeze...I'm sorry, whatever that means. I can't even imagine how that could be...

...hey um, it's never too late, right? Are you telling me you're going to turn into something that can't accept kindness?

[androidheart]

Yes.

Sometimes I wonder if I already have. It makes me very sad. I wish that I would be excited to be your your friend. A few months ago, I would have been. But now I'm a miserable person that you're most likely wasting your time speaking to.

[deathboss]

Well...just from speaking to you, I don't think you are. I mean we haven't spoken before but...

My parents always told us we could move mountains if we believed in it....granted I never really tried to move a mountain, but the point is, I'm more than willing to try! Being a friend that is. Besides trust me I wouldn't think this is wasting time. Doing a lot of the stuff I spend my days doing is wasting time.

[androidheart]

They sound like good parents.

What do you suggest I do? As your "Friend"?

Lillian 3/1

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[continued from~]

Sorry but unlike you I will not so easily compromise my own existence.

I've been fighting that this whole time. If Dad and Mom couldn't do it, God decided he would take matters into his own hands.

And here we are.

[aintjustaweapon]

Angela...

Compromise ain't a bad thing when it's the only option you got.

If you are gonna turn into a robot...well. You ain't one yet, you know?
If there's stuff you wanna do that you don't think you'll get a chance to do later.

Do it now.

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This sucks.

Everything was fine.

I guess I'll make a bucket list. Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha.

I may be able to do certain things, but I question my ability to actually enjoy them. It feels like everything is poisoned.

[aintjustaweapon]

I know you feel.
Believe me.
But...

You have to try and put that aside, Angela.
It'll consume you if you don't.

[androidheart]

Well.

We're not all as strong as you are.

Yosuke 3/1

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No. I don't need it. I am tired of becoming a person that cries and complains all of the time.

I would rather become nothing, so maybe I will just make myself scarce instead.

[youraffection]

dont say stuff like that angela

[androidheart]

Why? Because it makes you sad? Well I am sad too, Yosuke.

I'm tired, and just being realistic.

[youraffection]

angela...
look
i dont wanna be an ass but ur not being realistic
ur being fatalistic!
ur important 2 a lot of ppl
if ur sad we wanna help!
if ur tired we wanna help 2

u know u might not b the only one going thru this??
there might be other ppl 2

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No one can help me, though.

I'm beyond help. All I can do is Deal With It.

I will only hurt anyone that tries to help me. I have already done so far too much.

Sorry, Yosuke. You deserve better than me.