[A slow drink of the bitter coffee.]

When did I get so indecisive?

I suppose I won't have any choice but to take the offer eventually. It's not like people are going to fall out of the sky offering me record deals. And I'm not one of those pretty girls that can make millions off of the Internet alone.

[A somewhat deflated sigh, as her optimism continues to dip.]

I wasn't ready for the amount of scratching and clawing it looks like I'm about to need to do. I think that's the trouble.